Although I’m starting to write somewhat infrequently it doesn’t mean that the mind and body have stopped moving. Maybe on the contrary the mind races and the body tries to keep up with all that’s going on. I read this article by Henry Rollins and it stayed with me.
It then got me to thinking about other things that don’t lie. It got me to thinking about numbers. Cold hard facts that exist on the display that represents my net worth in financial terms. I don’t like what it says. On the one hand that number is abstract and temporary as it is just a snapshot in an instant of time but on the other it represents my obligation to the system that has been shaped over time. If anything I want to free myself of this obligation as quickly as I can. The numbers don’t lie
The numbers don’t lie when I consider that I still want to roam the planet. How can I do that when I have trouble paying for rent? As much as I would like to make myself at home here I can’t afford to. The numbers don’t lie.
There are only so many hours in the day and so many days in the week. I could work more hours or I could make more per hour. I want to work to live and not live to work. I have done that already and would like to live a bit more now and not be beholden to the job. I’d like to be in the driver’s seat and control my destiny. The numbers don’t lie.
I published this prematurely and maybe it’s starkness without much flair should have been left in place. But then it wouldn’t go with the spirit of what I am trying to do. I’ll just wait out the rainy moments in this here coffee shop so that my head doesn’t get rained on too much. I wonder how long it will take this time for the shower to pass. The rain doesn’t lie.